Sunday, October 21, 2012

A 3rd of a life crisis???

The past few months I have been having what I can consider a mid-life crisis.  However, according to my best friend I am too hold for a midlife crisis.  So we are calling it a 3rd of life crisis.

I had so many life changes this year.....that a part of me thinks that I'm overwhelmed.  But then the other part of me thinks that I did not do what I should do in life.  And maybe I should have listened to my best friends mom 11 years ago when she told me I was in the wrong major.

I took a major that I absolutely adore.  And I enjoyed everything about it.  But now I'm wondering, if it was the right career move for me.  Do I regret the path my life took.  Nope, not really.  But I feel I'm missing out on something.  And I may have missed my calling in life.  Maybe not missing out...but a little behind in completing it.

As I sit and contemplate what the next step in life is....well.....this is going to be one intense journey.  And I hope that it goes how it should.  And that I get a better feeling of life/self satisfaction.

Sunday, October 16, 2011

Day 17 of 30 Day Photo Challenge

A picture of something that has made a huge impact on your life recently

The Lovely Karen!

She has become such a wonderful friend and has been so incredibly helpful with some new situations that are going on in my life. And I would be lost without her!

Wednesday, August 17, 2011

My dad....

4 years ago today, my dad passed away. He stopped fighting against heart disease. My dad was one of the most amazing people in my life. Even though we fought/disagreed frequently, he was the first one that I would call when something great or bad happened to me. He was my best friend in the whole world. I hope that I have made you proud. Dad, I love you and miss you so much.

March 19th, 1936 - August 17th, 2007

Looking so handsome. This is from when he first moved to Canada in the 50's.

Yep! He could play the acordian. And he played it well.

His last birthday I spent with him before moving overseas.
This is from March 2005.

Saturday, July 16, 2011

Day 16 of 30 Day Photo Challenge

Apparently I have completely sucked at finishing this challenge. Instead of 30 days, its taken me months!!! But I am determined to finish it!!

Day 16 - A Picture of something that inspires you...

This is my dad. He passed away almost 4 years ago.

Yet I am still inspired by him.

I am because, I know that he is watching out over me.
I don't want to do anything in life that would disappoint him.
And I want to make sure that I ALWAYS make him proud!

Love you dad!!!

Thursday, July 14, 2011

I can't sleep. Yet when I do, I can't seem to wake up.

I don't want to be alone. But when I'm surrounded with people, I feel uncomfortable.

I want silence, but want noise at the same time.

I am just feeling so unsettled, so unsure, so.......void.

Sunday, April 3, 2011

Day 15 of 30 Day Challenge

Day 15 - A picture of something you want to do before you die

One of my life goals is to visit Germany before I die. This is the Black Forest, where my dad was born. I will go there one day!

Sunday, January 30, 2011

Day 14 of 30 Day Challenge

Day 14 - A picture of your most treasured item

I started this post 8 different times over the past month. It was probably the most difficult one for me to think of. I have lots of items that I love and would never want to be without. But most treasured makes me feel like it must be something that you would die than live without it. So it really got me thinking. What do I have, that I couldn't imagine not having. There was my Cinderella snow globe, my artwork that I bought to remember my dad by, my 2 cinderella christmas decorations. But none of those had the same meaning/nostalgia like the following 2 items.

My mom's dress. She passed away when I was a toddler. And this dress has been in my possession ever since. I've never worn it. It just always hangs in the back of my closet and will not go anywhere.

My dad passed away 3 and 1/2 years ago. I have more memories of him than possessions. But this little chest I couldn't not have. It was on his dresser for as long as I can remember. And now it sits on a shelf on my wall.