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I had a dream about my dad last night....
I haven't dreamt about him (that I can remember) in about a year and 1/2. I like to have dreams of him because then I remember him and its like he is alive again. But I also have a hard time having dreams about him because I just can't handle the feeling afterwards....it's heartbreaking. And I am not one to remember my dreams....so when I wake up, I don't usually remember much besides him being in it....and then the memory of him moving and talking fades.
He was in trouble in this dream....and he wouldn't tell me. I tried to help him....and then I don't know what happened I woke up. It felt so real though....it even had my new apartment in it (I was living in it), he was living nearby.
I think the dream was sparked because the other night when I was unpacking I was going through a bunch of souveniers. I found specific things that I had bought for my dad but had never mailed to him or given him....